Part IV
Ever since quitting the job, for the first time in my adult life I had all my time free. No work, no university, just time to explore my personal interests.
I turned 30 years old, the start of a new decade. Besides some identity crisis and crying, I was doing just fine.
I used my free time to read, write (publish my first book), draw, learn western Astronomy, Quantum physics, Astrology, Ancient History and went very often with Linus to the forests around Berlin.
As I became more and more awake, I also isolated myself like many people who are experiencing their spiritual awakening do. It’s hard to make sense of the world we live in when we find out that the Universe is all connected.
The channel that opened for me in the hypnosis was giving me access to different realities in different dimensions. I was interested in witnessing things in meditation and intuitively writing through channeling.
The real challenge here is the impossibility of proving consciousness with our traditional-theoretical way of proving things, because everything happens inside the mind. Many things in this world are invisible to our eyes, but it doesn’t mean they do not exist. Good example are the {radio, WiFi} waves themselves.
The truth is, people will always believe what they want.
But to me the most important thing is to keep the mind open for learning, because there’s so much we don’t know yet!
I didn’t find it easy to find other people in Berlin with whom I could exchange ideas; people with similar points of view as me. So I hope that my blog here and my YT channel TheStarsPromise attract believers and that we can both learn from each other.
Now I want you to take something into consideration: even though we live in a globalized world where information travels at the speed of light, the place and traditions of one’s childhood still define how one sees the world. Their reality.
So if you tell a person that was raised in Brazil about meditation, this person will most likely say “oh this is not for me” or “my mind is never quiet, I can not do this”. But if you tell the same to someone raised in India, the reaction will probably be “oh yes, it is present in many parts of my day, it’s all about breathing and feeling the emotions”.
Meditation is a portal that each one of us has inside our hearts to connect to the universal consciousness. But one must want to reach that portal with a pure intention.
Life is hard as it is. Many times we have something blocking us from doing what we know it’s best for us. Like eating healthier, exercising or quitting bad habits. Somehow we can not stop and change, even though we know it’s not good for us.
All these mental modifications try to stop us from realizing and experiencing the Self. The way we were taught how to think has the greatest impact on how we build our own realities. Nowadays, neuroscience has already shown that the brain creates and lives what it believes. In the same way, we become what we believe.
I know that some realities are tougher than others, and there is no such a thing as fairness all around the globe. Some people have much more than others and that makes them get what they want in a much easier manner. But that doesn’t mean it is impossible for others to attract and manifest the life they want.
Self-confidence is something that is built from the inside and it materializes on the outside by the force of action. Action is Karma Yoga, as nothing really changes by only imagination. One must do its part as well.
By leaving the introspection and deciding to make decisions that would benefit our own spiritual growths, in 2025 Till and I decided to leave Berlin with Linus and start exploring Europe traveling in a campervan. We built it ourselves and went from Germany to Greece. We met many nice and friendly people, who welcomed us with openness and shared a bit of their lives with us.
I will forever carry memories of this time traveling in our cozy van through the Balkans, going to waterfalls with my loved ones, bathing on rivers and learning about farm life.
Everything was going great, but somehow we had an emptiness inside us, especially when our dog had to leave us to go to Brazil with my ex-boyfriend (we both love Linus very much and ever since we separated we have been kindly sharing his custody). At this moment my husband and I had to ponder how we wanted to spend our time before going back to Brazil in the beginning of the following year. After some time trying to release the attachment from our van, we made the decision to travel to Indonesia.
It was a dream of ours to go to Indonesia, so there was our first destination. We explored the island of Java and ended up spending one month in Bali. We had the opportunity of doing exchange work as content creators in a Yoga & Healing retreat center in the north of the island and that certainly opened our eyes to much more self-knowledge and holistic experiences. I learned different meditation techniques focused on the chakras and ecstatic dance.
My husband and I were told that our souls have been connected through many lifetimes. This explains the instantaneous connection we had when we first met almost ten years ago in Santiago, Chile, and became friends. The present lifetime has a particular goal that we need to achieve together, and this period in Bali brought us clarity to walk on our path.
The Balinese people are really inspiring and I have a lot of love and respect for their culture. I love how they honour the different dimensions existing on Earth and how they cultivate gratitude and respect for their ancestors.
After Bali we went to the island of Lombok, where I took my first chance as a Tarot card reader. I had been encouraged and influenced by the Gurus in Bali to express my intuitive powers and healing abilities.
I still don’t understand why it is so hard for me to just be myself to the fullest. My mind is always full of preoccupations and anxiety. Even though I practice Yoga (both the Asanas and the Philosophy), I still struggle to really embody it in every day of life, especially in moments of uncertainty. But I know I’m not the only one experiencing this; even the most advanced practitioners still go through some challenges sometimes.
For my happiness, these days that I offered card readings were better than expected! Many women came to me with their questions and I could answer all of them. They were very happy and satisfied with the way I explained the truth brought by the cards.
The Gurus also gave Till and I the idea of taking a Yoga Teacher Training, as this certification is a gateway for exploring different healing and holistic practices as a profession. So unexpectedly (again) we booked a flight to India and enrolled in a 200 hours Yoga Course.
Everyday there was learning and a challenge, both physically and emotionally. By practicing the asanas, some points in our bodies are opened and emotions are released. Many people experience sadness, tears and a feeling of stuckness too. However the body is forever wise and no emotion is released if it is not ready to be healed.
The teachers were full of knowledge and it was such a pleasure to absorb what they had to say. The yogic science is for sure an integral one, bringing aspects of body, mind and soul to a practical way. Mastering this science makes one experience complete stillness and the True Self.
As for me, I realized that there’s no time for holding myself from becoming who I want to be. By doing this, I only bring suffering to my spirit. Other people will always accept us if they really love us. Everything that happens in this life has a reason and we should not lose time not being who we truly are. If one doesn’t feel bliss and love for what is doing, then the path is most definetly not right. In the other hand, if there’s a sensation that everything is a bliss, be sure you’re on the right path.
Coming to Brazil this year has certainly a reason to be. Four years ago I could not imagine that I would be willing and wanting to come back to my home town. But somehow, it feels just right. To be in contact with nature grounds me and makes me appreciate all the beauty of my homeland. To be close to my family brings me back a strong feeling of love and belonging.
Of course, I am not the same person as the one who left many years ago. I am now a different version of myself and I am ready to just be present in the moment and express this to the world. I want to share the knowledge I gathered until here and help others to open and access their consciousnesses.
Love,
Guta